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cooking, depression, family, health, hopeful, humor, life, sleep, sleep walking
Hey forces of the world. It’s me again. We need to talk.
So, this weekend my mom is driving in with my aunt and uncle. They should be here by Saturday or Sunday.
Can I ask one favor? Give me the month that they will be here off of pain and other health problems? Please?
I don’t want to faint randomly while out with them. It causes undesired stress for all parties. It’s embarrassing for me. We can reschedule for after they leave, okay?
Would it at all be possible to schedule in some sleep? You know that thing people do for six to eight hours, solid, without interruption? I’d like to try that. It’s been so long since I’ve been able to participate in that activity. I’m so used to falling asleep in my bed and an hour or so later waking up in the kitchen holding a spoon. It’s becoming a problem when I don’t recall getting out of bed and making my way down the flight of stairs. Or picking up utensils. What will happen next? I make waffles?
Now, I know asking for my body to be pain-free is relatively nothing short of a miracle. So, could we just maybe cut the pain by 50% and I promise once everyone is gone, you’re more than welcome to come back to full strength like every day.
I just want to be some sort of normal, whatever that may be. Can we try that out? I don’t want to be the one who can’t enjoy a day because I physically can’t. I despise that more than anything. I want to be able to cook my mom meals while she is here. Things that I can be proud of. Things she’ll eat and swoon over. I want to seize the days. Go out and see the flora and fauna out here. I’m sick of being stuck inside. I’m sick of being plagued by my health.
Just work with me here. I’d like to be a normal, functioning member of society. Deal?